Where My heart Belongs...

In regards to God-that's a no brainer, it absolutely unequivocally belongs in the palm of His hands, and that's where it will stay. When I think about the statement above "Where My Heart Belongs" I almost wince at the thought, when considering being in a relationship, being in love. This is a question that I've asked myself so many times. Of course traumatic events often push these thoughts to the forefront. I still wonder how it all fits into the equation of my life..still. You know the saying, you take two steps forward and are seemingly shoved 10 steps back, by something or somebody?? Well I've learned how to endure the blow and not get blown back into yesterday, however moving forward is the most challenging waters to navigate. it's easy to be complacent when it pertains to love, especially when you've been hurt badly. It's one thing to forgive someone and let it go. It's a whole other set of circumstances trying to wholeheartedly move forward with the next person who just might be the RIGHT person.....pausing to think.....or even allowing yourself to believe their is a RIGHT person. Someone recently asked me if I would be content being single for the rest of my life. I immediately said no....without a thought, that's progress for me. However would I be willing to move forward if God said today or tomorrow..I don't know.

How scary is it though to tell someone your story again, trust that what their saying is truth, believe all over again that this time will be different? It's very scary,if we'd be honest. Something that we might even avoid. How many times have many of us prayed to God and expressed our heart to Him and still find ourselves not sure. I submit that God is truly up to something. He is working on the intricate and dark places that we are not even able to conceptualize. How can anyone truly measure the full extent/impact of hurt and pain? It's a real and individual experience, as unique as our fingerprints. It often surfaces when we least expect it. And although we can empathize with each other, no one can feel the virtue leave us when someone says something or does something that causes that emotional blow.

I am no longer a pessimist, I declare that I'm an optimist. As an optimist I believe that everything will work together for my good..OUR good Romans 8:28. I also believe that when I can not seemingly effectively apply my analytical skills or common sense to understand a situation, that I have to apply the word of God! So Proverbs 3:5-6, Psalm 37:4, Jeremiah 29:11 they answer where my heart TRULY belongs and will stay--Tied up in my destiny never to be separated from God's perfect will. When I think about it all , it all starts and ends with God-so if I fully and completely trust HIM I cant go wrong. I just have to be patient and obedient.
The bottom line is having faith in those hard times, when you can't see..

Love Yall!!
=) Nakiyah