transitions

There is soooo much on my mind right now...I will give it to you all as clearly as possible. I have not blogged in awhile because I couldn't decide what to share. As I sit here on this Tremendous Thursday I realize that I am at another pivotal point in my life. Realizing everyday who I really am...embracing parts of me that have been dormant for so long.. There are times when insecurity speaks to our consciousness and it's not accurate, and then there are times when the core of who you are speaks to you and either reminds you of key things, or heightens your senses to things that you are not paying attention to. That happened to me this morning...a gut feeling...can't explain it in too much detail. I just had a shift in thinking.I've said this so many times and I will continue to do so, don't smother, stuff, or stifle your true feelings. They will only come back to haunt you. I'm not just talking about romantic feelings....your needs, what you expect, what makes you tick. When you don't it festers until something triggers and then BOOM there they are again and you have to deal with them.

Sometimes we keep at something in expectation of some enormous life altering change...I've been taught to be loyal, hang in there etc...We have to be careful of what we ascribe our loyalty to. If it is not God's will, it won't yield fruit. It will start yielding corruption, confusion,stagnation. Now we know what those things bring with them...doubt, fear, hopelessness, defeat.

Today, I have once again re-committed myself to loving me and focusing on being patient and not hasty. You can't make anyone love you, want you, or verify what they've said to you. The only thing that you can do is keep being you, keep loving folks, and let the chips fall where they might. I truly believe that patterns persist, I do believe that human behavior can change if one is committed to change. However, if someone is consistent in their approach towards you, take them at their actions! This goes for friends, business associates, people of romantic interest, family etc. Sometimes we want what we're not even ready for. Go at your own pace, hold things loosely, and Hold on TIGHTEST to GOD!

Love yall much,
Kiyah!