Letting Go

There is such a freedom in letting go,once you finally do it...The struggle is finding the courage and resolve to do so. The hardest part of letting go is making all the necessary preparations and steps in order to do so. Convincing yourself that your loyalty to someone or something stops at a certain point, dealing with the after effects of the vacancy that letting go creates,telling yourself that you really are better off without said person/thing. All of this grueling preparation for that liberating moment when you do what's best for you and your future and not what's best for your here and now.Sometimes we pro-long letting go because it satisfies a temporary desire. It takes maturity, strength of character, and some serious guts to do this. You really have to be completely convinced that it is necessary to let go. If anything in your life is not growing then you need to let it go. God has given you the Holy spirit and intuition, you have a good idea of what you need and what suits you. Granted there are times when the Lord will use someone to be the voice of reason about things that you overlook, but you generally know what you need to do to make things happen in your life.

Don't be afraid of transition. Oh believe me, I know that transitions and letting go can be traumatizing at times. However, the after effects yield such favorable results that you recognize that it is an absolute MUST. Letting go requires daily affirmation, you have to remind yourself on a daily basis why you are doing what you are doing. If you don't do this you will easily slip back into old habits. Whether it's "stinking thinking" or just plain "busy thinking" such as: ruminating about why you didn't do it sooner, what people will think? why me? what am I going to fill that void with? Although these are valid thoughts,when we OVER ANALYZE things we subject our self to the weakness in our own interpretations. Life has a way that is sometimes a great mystery. In order to make sense of this mystery there has to be balance in our thinking about the transitions we go through. Great confidence in our gut is required, but we also have to rely on God to smooth out the path that follows the transition.

The good thing about it all is knowing that you will be stronger, wiser, and better after it's all been said and done. Letting go is an amazing feeling, it frees you from worry, the mother of stress LOL. God loves us and knows us best and if He brings us to it, He will bring us through it.

Love Yall Much!
:-) Kiyah

Listen.....

For every season in your life there is a purpose and when you are in your purpose your passion will flourish, and when your passion flourishes WATCH OUT!!

Never let pain, hurt, or disappointment stymy your growth. It can absolutely catapult you into a new season. There are situations,times, occurrences in your life where you are placed in someone's life to develop something in them or vice versa and then it's time for you to move on. Be sensitive to God and listen when he says to let go. What will happen if you don't is the very thing that loved you and looked to you will no longer love you or want to look to you. You will think it's them or you and it's not, the process/season is over and now it's time for the next assignment. This is why the bible says that we should pray without ceasing. When we truly remain prayerful, we will know when the sand in the hour glass has made it's last drop to the bottom and that it's time to turn the hourglass over and begin a new chapter...
Love you all much! Keep loving each other and keep loving God! :-)

transitions

There is soooo much on my mind right now...I will give it to you all as clearly as possible. I have not blogged in awhile because I couldn't decide what to share. As I sit here on this Tremendous Thursday I realize that I am at another pivotal point in my life. Realizing everyday who I really am...embracing parts of me that have been dormant for so long.. There are times when insecurity speaks to our consciousness and it's not accurate, and then there are times when the core of who you are speaks to you and either reminds you of key things, or heightens your senses to things that you are not paying attention to. That happened to me this morning...a gut feeling...can't explain it in too much detail. I just had a shift in thinking.I've said this so many times and I will continue to do so, don't smother, stuff, or stifle your true feelings. They will only come back to haunt you. I'm not just talking about romantic feelings....your needs, what you expect, what makes you tick. When you don't it festers until something triggers and then BOOM there they are again and you have to deal with them.

Sometimes we keep at something in expectation of some enormous life altering change...I've been taught to be loyal, hang in there etc...We have to be careful of what we ascribe our loyalty to. If it is not God's will, it won't yield fruit. It will start yielding corruption, confusion,stagnation. Now we know what those things bring with them...doubt, fear, hopelessness, defeat.

Today, I have once again re-committed myself to loving me and focusing on being patient and not hasty. You can't make anyone love you, want you, or verify what they've said to you. The only thing that you can do is keep being you, keep loving folks, and let the chips fall where they might. I truly believe that patterns persist, I do believe that human behavior can change if one is committed to change. However, if someone is consistent in their approach towards you, take them at their actions! This goes for friends, business associates, people of romantic interest, family etc. Sometimes we want what we're not even ready for. Go at your own pace, hold things loosely, and Hold on TIGHTEST to GOD!

Love yall much,
Kiyah!

Back to Basics

Hey Yall! So I'm reading the bible through the year...I am still in Genesis..LOL..but I'm getting there. Well I've read the story of ABRAHAM and SARAI many times, but as I read it this week my mind started traveling. Sarai and Abram were given the promise about a child, Sarai decided to take matters into her own hands and Abram unwittingly followed suit. But just focusing on Sarai, she's a woman and I can relate to her more, she became anxious and faithless, and her lack of self control impacted more than just her life. Ishmael ended up being fatherless, and Hagar was completely denied the right to choose what to do with her own body. Who knows, Sarai's and Abram's decision may have been what ended up delaying the promise of a child for more than 4 years after Ishmael was born. Taking matters into our own hands delays and blocks blessings. God will still bless us, but just imagine if we'd waited patiently, at the proper time the blessing would have manifested, it would have saved us a lot of heartache and pain. So many lessons in this for me. Mostly self-examination, it is so important that we check in with God about who we say we are and what we are actually doing. he knows us through and through. He knows our hearts and secret conversations. He will tell us the real deal about who we really are.
Leave room for error, meaning know that you are wrong sometimes and it's okay not to be perfect. Say what you mean, express yourself in love, and keep it moving when it comes to hard things. It's important not to brush over things, but it is also important that you address a matter and then move on. Forgive and yes forget. I think that's the better principal. when you endeavor to forget then you're doing as God does. Once you repent He forgets it and casts it in the sea, where its washed away.
In reading through Genesis God is showing me, how little areas of disobedience turn into major life interruptions. Let's make a vow to try to minimize those things that stifle our progress and growth. let's agree to disagree, and still show each other love. Let's go back to basics and use what works to effectively spring forward!

LOVE YALL!

Nakiyah

Freedom

There is a certain freedom that comes with freeing yourself.....in order to get free, you have to free yourself, you know what I mean? Dont stuff your truths to mask your secret pain....it will only cause that pain to grow and grow and grow some more. Let God reveal it to you in it's entirety, so that He can heal it.The day you release yourself from your securities is the day that you really start living. Love you for you, and then someone else will truly love you for you!


love yall much,
Nakiyah

Faith, Love, Action

I have a lot of thoughts going through my head right now...I am probably faced with the hardest thing that I can think of that I've experienced in my life...and not a tear has been shed over it. Amazing, I tell you, God is amazing! He is truly lifting up my head and heart right now. It's not anything relationship related at all, Praise God! Nothing is too hard for God and He's showing me what joy in sorrow feels like. I should absolutely , positively be sad about certain things, but I have gladness and joy because I have hope. I am trusting the One that never fails and I believe that makes a big difference.. Interestingly enough as I'm writing this and declaring in faith that I will have joy, God worked on some one's heart.That quick and in an instant. This is how I know that God is real. In the midst of a dry place, or a situation where you just can not see how it will get better, God steps in and will show you once again who He is and what He can do. Faith is the one thing that no one can take away from you. It can be challenged and tested, but no one can take it away from you.

Find ways to make an impact with your life. Sometimes when I think about the people in my life that God has blessed me with I begin to cry. Tears of joy. Because I remember when...and I know that God is just showing me how much He loves me through them. We have what we say and we are what we say! There is so much life and power in our words! The very atmosphere around you changes when you speak..it seems so simple, but it really isn't. It requires work and diligence The word of God says that Death and life are in the power of the tongue and they that love it will eat the fruit thereof. I want good fruit to be produced from my speech, so that I can reap the benefits..How about you?


love ya!
Kiyah :-)

Where My heart Belongs...

In regards to God-that's a no brainer, it absolutely unequivocally belongs in the palm of His hands, and that's where it will stay. When I think about the statement above "Where My Heart Belongs" I almost wince at the thought, when considering being in a relationship, being in love. This is a question that I've asked myself so many times. Of course traumatic events often push these thoughts to the forefront. I still wonder how it all fits into the equation of my life..still. You know the saying, you take two steps forward and are seemingly shoved 10 steps back, by something or somebody?? Well I've learned how to endure the blow and not get blown back into yesterday, however moving forward is the most challenging waters to navigate. it's easy to be complacent when it pertains to love, especially when you've been hurt badly. It's one thing to forgive someone and let it go. It's a whole other set of circumstances trying to wholeheartedly move forward with the next person who just might be the RIGHT person.....pausing to think.....or even allowing yourself to believe their is a RIGHT person. Someone recently asked me if I would be content being single for the rest of my life. I immediately said no....without a thought, that's progress for me. However would I be willing to move forward if God said today or tomorrow..I don't know.

How scary is it though to tell someone your story again, trust that what their saying is truth, believe all over again that this time will be different? It's very scary,if we'd be honest. Something that we might even avoid. How many times have many of us prayed to God and expressed our heart to Him and still find ourselves not sure. I submit that God is truly up to something. He is working on the intricate and dark places that we are not even able to conceptualize. How can anyone truly measure the full extent/impact of hurt and pain? It's a real and individual experience, as unique as our fingerprints. It often surfaces when we least expect it. And although we can empathize with each other, no one can feel the virtue leave us when someone says something or does something that causes that emotional blow.

I am no longer a pessimist, I declare that I'm an optimist. As an optimist I believe that everything will work together for my good..OUR good Romans 8:28. I also believe that when I can not seemingly effectively apply my analytical skills or common sense to understand a situation, that I have to apply the word of God! So Proverbs 3:5-6, Psalm 37:4, Jeremiah 29:11 they answer where my heart TRULY belongs and will stay--Tied up in my destiny never to be separated from God's perfect will. When I think about it all , it all starts and ends with God-so if I fully and completely trust HIM I cant go wrong. I just have to be patient and obedient.
The bottom line is having faith in those hard times, when you can't see..

Love Yall!!
=) Nakiyah