Life..............

Livin & Learnin---Learnin & Livin ...so much to absorb..so much to discard..where do I begin?? I start with me, my flaws, my issues, my mistakes, my ways that are not so right... Constantly looking in that mirror and waiting in silence for truth to immerge..not afraid or ashamed to face the gritty grungy truth, ready to tear that mess up by the root. Sad/happy, happy/sad...teeter tottering on 2 familiar spectrums wondering where I fall...where do I really wanna be..do I want to wallow in self-pity or bask in the abundance of bliss...what will I miss while I try once again to sift through all of this?? A myriad of thoughts...a myriad of emotions flowing shooting exploding in my head..Sometimes I've felt like..wished I was ..........
Like a burst of light exposing darkness the voice of God through the pages of life cut through the montage of thoughts/emotions/anxieties/fears/questions....Now I know what to do..now I know there's purpose for me..Now I'm ready to surrender completely and give HIM all I have so that he can make me what he wants me to be...The LIGHT always nullifies darkness...I've come full circle and although I must begin again I am certain of the bright future ahead.......I can finally see clearly, freely, without reservation, without doubt....ambitious, but somehwat naive..naive to the drudgery of doubt/fear/pain ...clean slate..newness....boundless...Magnificent...basking in HIS SPLENDOR!!