Well Folks, last month was quite a month and as I have rolled into June (my bday month :) I find myself more grateful than ever....I have an overwhelming sense of gratitude for life and all that it has brought my way. YUP! With every trial and failure there has emerged beautiful lessons, blessings, relationships, epiphanies, and MOMENTS OF TRUTH! I tweeted this week that I'm turning 29 this month and I've never felt more beautiful..in our society we tend to be viewed as at our "peak" in terms of outward beauty right around our early-mid twenties. Well I've surpassed those years :-) and I am able to see my physical, spiritual, and intellectual beauty all wrapped up together at the tender age of 29. I see it in a way that I wasnt able to in the past. I no longer question why it took so long to get that FULL picture..I just embrace it now that the RIGHT perspective is here. There is much more work to do, but let's just say I'm all the way straight on the that subject now! :-)
I was talking with my mother last night and I think we both came to a few "moment of truths" about our lives separately and as they have overlapped over time. The most precious gift that someone can give to themself is "self-awarness". That's always where the real HEART work and self-examination begins. I'm grateful for the little moments of truth that I experience daily. God speaks in those moments, it's a place of positive brokenness. THIS is what God delights in! Love you all! Let's let big and small moments of truth invade our lives!
Kya :)
Saturday, June 4, 2011
Friday, April 29, 2011
The 'Opulence of Transformation
So it's been almost 3 months since my last blog...I have totally been neglecting it.. despite my goals that stated that I would blog 3 times per month..however I believe in the principle of starting over as many times as possible until you get it right...Now that that's out of the way..
HEYYYYYYY Folks! Lots has been going on in my world. Lots of change, transformation, transition. And the beat is surely going on in all of those areas in my life. I've never had this much peace about such an unstable time in my life...when I say unstable I mean that nothing is concrete at all..God has turned my life upside down in the best way, so I'm still tumbling in the dryer of life..lol..but I know that my outcome is going to bring warmth, peace, and a beautiful covering over area of my life, so I'm fine with the instability. Happiness is a prisoner to circumstances, but these days I choose JOY. Everyday I choose to love beyond my comfort zone, and listen to the voice of God regarding what I say to others, and my selftalk. We can totally get in trouble because of what we say to others and ourselves. I also find that I choose to pay attention to the people I hold dear more. I find myself looking for opportunities to encourage, listen, and and just be more in tune. We never know sometimes what a kind word or a "hey, you alright?" can mean to someone. I don't think as much about how often I am the one reaching out or am I keeping tally of who's doing the most in my relationships. I just am finding that my true authentic self loves to love people and just be there for them. I totally gain strength from that. It literally makes my day when I know I've made a friend smile or encouraged them in some way..So I'm feeding that part of me.
Since my last blog I have a new church home. This week while just reflecting over life the past year...I realized that I have a lot of growing up to do as a Christian.. I have been saved since I was 9 and have confessed possessing God's spirit in me since 13 and at 28 I can unequivocally say that I have so much growing to do in the Lord!!! A faithless Christian is not much of a Christian at all, and I know I've lived in fear 85% of my life. So sad, but so true. My pastors make me confront my fears everyday of my life with the word that they teach when I attend church on Sundays. They make me want to be driven to demand and command respect in every area of my life. To never allow myself to feel inferior. To pursue life with passion and authority... and never apologize for it. These are all things that people have to consistently practice in our lives. They make me forget what I look like or have on when I walk through the doors and completely focus on receiving, so that I can give out as much as possible while I'm here on this Earth. I've said enough for this blog..lol..there's more to come..and I look forward to sharing my journey with you all! Much love and success to you!
Kya :-)
HEYYYYYYY Folks! Lots has been going on in my world. Lots of change, transformation, transition. And the beat is surely going on in all of those areas in my life. I've never had this much peace about such an unstable time in my life...when I say unstable I mean that nothing is concrete at all..God has turned my life upside down in the best way, so I'm still tumbling in the dryer of life..lol..but I know that my outcome is going to bring warmth, peace, and a beautiful covering over area of my life, so I'm fine with the instability. Happiness is a prisoner to circumstances, but these days I choose JOY. Everyday I choose to love beyond my comfort zone, and listen to the voice of God regarding what I say to others, and my selftalk. We can totally get in trouble because of what we say to others and ourselves. I also find that I choose to pay attention to the people I hold dear more. I find myself looking for opportunities to encourage, listen, and and just be more in tune. We never know sometimes what a kind word or a "hey, you alright?" can mean to someone. I don't think as much about how often I am the one reaching out or am I keeping tally of who's doing the most in my relationships. I just am finding that my true authentic self loves to love people and just be there for them. I totally gain strength from that. It literally makes my day when I know I've made a friend smile or encouraged them in some way..So I'm feeding that part of me.
Since my last blog I have a new church home. This week while just reflecting over life the past year...I realized that I have a lot of growing up to do as a Christian.. I have been saved since I was 9 and have confessed possessing God's spirit in me since 13 and at 28 I can unequivocally say that I have so much growing to do in the Lord!!! A faithless Christian is not much of a Christian at all, and I know I've lived in fear 85% of my life. So sad, but so true. My pastors make me confront my fears everyday of my life with the word that they teach when I attend church on Sundays. They make me want to be driven to demand and command respect in every area of my life. To never allow myself to feel inferior. To pursue life with passion and authority... and never apologize for it. These are all things that people have to consistently practice in our lives. They make me forget what I look like or have on when I walk through the doors and completely focus on receiving, so that I can give out as much as possible while I'm here on this Earth. I've said enough for this blog..lol..there's more to come..and I look forward to sharing my journey with you all! Much love and success to you!
Kya :-)
Tuesday, February 1, 2011
Streams of Love
So its the dead of winter...snow is falling, wind is briskly whipping across the tall buildings of NYC, traffic, slippery streets, cars blowing their horns incessantly-- and in the midst of all of that I'm sitting at my computer desk in my cozy little apartment in the Bronx thinking about love.But not just love in romantic relationships, that's what we generally tend to gravitate to in our thoughts..Love in its many and splendid forms... thinking about the different Streams of Love God has provided us with, which is why this blog is entitled "Streams of Love".
So we can share God's love with others in so many different ways...an encouraging word, a written piece of work, through physical affection, correction etc. We tend to share our love with those we deem worthy of our love. As we go through life we become very selective of who we dole it out to.In thinking about this subject I asked myself these questions: How do you convince yourself to love the perceived unlovable? Where does that ability stream from?
Many pride themselves on being "ride or die" for the ones they love, and this may be true...but that tenacity and level of commitment has a stream from which it flows..It does not stand alone..because if in fact it did..so many broken relationships would be mended. The provider of that stream is God, and He filters His perfect love out to us through various flows. We may experience His overwhelming presence,He might use a friend/loved one to give us a hug,or He may allow someone else's brokeness and transparency bring illumination to our minds...the list goes on.. The fact remains that God in all His infinite wisdom knew that because we're made in His image that we would need different things to cater to our intricate needs. He made us with a will, the ability to question things, to be able to create and manipulate situations for our desired outcome.
So this year my goal is to use every stream of love God has afforded to me to love those around me...To learn how to not just forgive, but to forget. A lot of us are holding on to things through the perspective of having forgiven..but not forgetting. I'm not saying make the same mistake twice..but don't become so fearful of a repeat of life that there is no room for unscripted wonder to occur. Whether its a text message, a tweet, a facebook status, a song, a book, a painting, playing a game with a friend/family member/stranger etc. Make every day GREAT by utilizing these Streams of Love God has blessed us with! Let's save a life today, Let's inspire someone to try again, let's not just talk about it,let's be about it!
Use Your Stream today!!
Love you all!
Nakiyah
So we can share God's love with others in so many different ways...an encouraging word, a written piece of work, through physical affection, correction etc. We tend to share our love with those we deem worthy of our love. As we go through life we become very selective of who we dole it out to.In thinking about this subject I asked myself these questions: How do you convince yourself to love the perceived unlovable? Where does that ability stream from?
Many pride themselves on being "ride or die" for the ones they love, and this may be true...but that tenacity and level of commitment has a stream from which it flows..It does not stand alone..because if in fact it did..so many broken relationships would be mended. The provider of that stream is God, and He filters His perfect love out to us through various flows. We may experience His overwhelming presence,He might use a friend/loved one to give us a hug,or He may allow someone else's brokeness and transparency bring illumination to our minds...the list goes on.. The fact remains that God in all His infinite wisdom knew that because we're made in His image that we would need different things to cater to our intricate needs. He made us with a will, the ability to question things, to be able to create and manipulate situations for our desired outcome.
So this year my goal is to use every stream of love God has afforded to me to love those around me...To learn how to not just forgive, but to forget. A lot of us are holding on to things through the perspective of having forgiven..but not forgetting. I'm not saying make the same mistake twice..but don't become so fearful of a repeat of life that there is no room for unscripted wonder to occur. Whether its a text message, a tweet, a facebook status, a song, a book, a painting, playing a game with a friend/family member/stranger etc. Make every day GREAT by utilizing these Streams of Love God has blessed us with! Let's save a life today, Let's inspire someone to try again, let's not just talk about it,let's be about it!
Use Your Stream today!!
Love you all!
Nakiyah
Monday, January 24, 2011
Rest for the Worrier
Tonight I am blogging with so many wonderful things on my mind...The possibilities are indeed endless for me, and I have hope like never before.. there's something extremely special about resting in the hands of your creator. When you've truly rested you have surrendered all of your will, intellect, and logical thought processes while finding yourself just being in the state that you are in.
I was a CHRONIC worrier...to the point where it literally controlled every aspect of my life..always worrying that the worst would happen, because I'd often experienced pretty terrible things in the past.. being a slave to the pain of my past because I knew no other way to live......and I was a Christian..going to church every Sunday, ministering, praying for others, and filled with doubt about things ever being "well" for me. So how do you remedy that? It took me losing things I held dear to me emotionally,physically etc. for me to finally break out of the detrimental cycle of worrying...I got tired of receiving exactly what my "stinking thinking" said I would receive. Instead I took the promises of God and made them my own and began to lean on them with my WHOLE heart.
People may often say, that will never be me, or how could you not see your own worth..So much can be said about that...the bottom line is that YOU have the power to "label" yourself in such a way that you literally resist and denounce anything that deems you less than absolutely AMAZING! I know that I'm brilliant simply because God placed me on this Earth, out of the millions that could of been, HE CHOSE ME! Who am I to sit down and accept defeat when God has given me breath, time, and opportunity to effect change with my life? I'd say the same to you all!You're brilliant just because you're here...
The word of God Changed me, when nothing or no one else could help me, HIS love lifted me!! HIS LOVE did what my intellect and greatest reasoning could not do. So, maybe you are finding yourself where I was, stop-take a moment- and think about what God says about you! You are the head and not the tail, you are blessed and favored by God, and He loved you so much that HE literally died for you!! Let His amazing love overwhelm you, so that you can give it to others!!
Keep moving forward in love!
Kiyah :-)
I was a CHRONIC worrier...to the point where it literally controlled every aspect of my life..always worrying that the worst would happen, because I'd often experienced pretty terrible things in the past.. being a slave to the pain of my past because I knew no other way to live......and I was a Christian..going to church every Sunday, ministering, praying for others, and filled with doubt about things ever being "well" for me. So how do you remedy that? It took me losing things I held dear to me emotionally,physically etc. for me to finally break out of the detrimental cycle of worrying...I got tired of receiving exactly what my "stinking thinking" said I would receive. Instead I took the promises of God and made them my own and began to lean on them with my WHOLE heart.
People may often say, that will never be me, or how could you not see your own worth..So much can be said about that...the bottom line is that YOU have the power to "label" yourself in such a way that you literally resist and denounce anything that deems you less than absolutely AMAZING! I know that I'm brilliant simply because God placed me on this Earth, out of the millions that could of been, HE CHOSE ME! Who am I to sit down and accept defeat when God has given me breath, time, and opportunity to effect change with my life? I'd say the same to you all!You're brilliant just because you're here...
The word of God Changed me, when nothing or no one else could help me, HIS love lifted me!! HIS LOVE did what my intellect and greatest reasoning could not do. So, maybe you are finding yourself where I was, stop-take a moment- and think about what God says about you! You are the head and not the tail, you are blessed and favored by God, and He loved you so much that HE literally died for you!! Let His amazing love overwhelm you, so that you can give it to others!!
Keep moving forward in love!
Kiyah :-)
Saturday, November 27, 2010
DESTINY
Soooo :-) it's been super long since I have written a blog...Mainly because I like to process before I put things out there in the atmosphere. Well I have A LOT to say, but I will not say it all in this particular blog. A few things though. This has been an amazing 5 months! It's been filled with highs, lows, and a bevy of lessons. The people that God has placed in my life have literally spoken life and blessings over me, and it's my duty to embrace it all and walk out my dreams. There's a song that is dear to my heart by PJ Morton. One line says "somebody's waiting for you, waiting for me, destiny..." It's absolutely true! If we don't release what God has blessed us with to this world we have forfeited our TRUE lives. There are people that only you will touch and inspire...people that need the word that God has given you to proclaim.God has shown me that my ability to focus needed to be perfected in all areas.. I can be focused about this or that, but not in other areas. However excellence demands that deliberate focus be pervasive in all areas of my life. So in order to always operate in excellence focus and resolve have to be the foundation of all of my efforts..
I am 28 years old and there are so many things that I felt should have happened at this stage in my life...after having a conversation with my younger sisters on Thanksgiving I know that I've embraced where I am. It doesn't mean I'm not going to strive for better and more, it just means that I am content with the plan that God has for my life. It's so easy to become discontented and become purely emotional in your life decisions. I'm glad that I experienced all that I have this year because it showed me areas in my life that I needed to address and attack with the word of God. There's more but I'll save it!! Let's keep loving God, people, life, and making our dreams happen under God's direction. However the Lord uses you to reach folks, USE YOUR GIFTS!! We need you and we need your gifts! :-)
Love ya!
Kiyah
I am 28 years old and there are so many things that I felt should have happened at this stage in my life...after having a conversation with my younger sisters on Thanksgiving I know that I've embraced where I am. It doesn't mean I'm not going to strive for better and more, it just means that I am content with the plan that God has for my life. It's so easy to become discontented and become purely emotional in your life decisions. I'm glad that I experienced all that I have this year because it showed me areas in my life that I needed to address and attack with the word of God. There's more but I'll save it!! Let's keep loving God, people, life, and making our dreams happen under God's direction. However the Lord uses you to reach folks, USE YOUR GIFTS!! We need you and we need your gifts! :-)
Love ya!
Kiyah
Saturday, September 4, 2010
Pressure
Well it's been an interesting month..full of breakthroughs, revelations,epiphanies, all that great life changing kind of stuff! The greatest musical hits, most eloquently spoken sermons/speeches, the most profound moments in life are often manifested when the messenger is under extreme pressure...So when we are forced to FACE THE MUSIC per se, we have a choice. We can back down and bow out or we can face it and then define it's flow. That separates the strong from the weak and faint hearted. When life deals you a blow what's your course of action? Retreating doesn't have to mean that you're out of the game..it's simply an opportunity to brace up and come back better, more prepared, and more determined to be triumphant.
Isn't it an amazing sight when we think back to 6 months or a year ago and we weigh where we were in life and then where we are now? Even with all the mess-ups one should still be able to say, it happened...but it's going to make me better and more efficient in the future. There is a need for introspection and self-examination at all times, but let those processes benefit your world!! It's okay to be wrong, admit it, and move on in a positive direction. The more you acknowledge the faults, the more polished you will become because you'll be smoothing out those rough edges.
With all of this being said...God loves us the most and the best, so let him squeeze you, love you, correct you, and refine you and send you out to do amazing and wonderful things in this world!
Much Love,
Kiyah :-)
Isn't it an amazing sight when we think back to 6 months or a year ago and we weigh where we were in life and then where we are now? Even with all the mess-ups one should still be able to say, it happened...but it's going to make me better and more efficient in the future. There is a need for introspection and self-examination at all times, but let those processes benefit your world!! It's okay to be wrong, admit it, and move on in a positive direction. The more you acknowledge the faults, the more polished you will become because you'll be smoothing out those rough edges.
With all of this being said...God loves us the most and the best, so let him squeeze you, love you, correct you, and refine you and send you out to do amazing and wonderful things in this world!
Much Love,
Kiyah :-)
Wednesday, August 25, 2010
For My Ladies :-)
Don't ever lose yourself in love..Lose yourself in God and let him lead you to the love you've always deserved...
Past experiences may lead us to think that adversity in a relationship resembles what we deem as what would happen in "real life", so we continue to hold on and press on with the belief that through the struggles we will learn and grow..TRUTH-relationships will face tests, hardships etc..But agony should not be the dominant feeling.. Certainly not very early in a relationship..If someone is unhappy with how you communicate you can adjust, but do not LOSE the uniqueness of how you communicate in order to please someone else..it creates a false sense of reality for them and you..When you're dealing with someone they deserve the TRUE you..good,bad,fabulous,lackluster(yall get what I'm saying)
I can speak for me... having grown up being taught to be submissive to men, sometimes we find ourselves submitting to men that are not our husbands or figures of authority...this causes confusion..most often we are submitting to folks that were never intended to be entrusted with that great sense of responsibility. The confusion that develops is not present because something is wrong with them, it's because they are not the one(s) that God intended to handle your heart. Though they may try, they will be unsuccessful...This is why as women we are to seek wisdom, so that we can properly discern what is supposed to happen with any man that enters our life..we have to be on point spiritually.
Ruth was obedient to her mother in law, but she also had to have some connection to God..her faith told her to follow that woman and her wisdom told her that BOAZ was worth putting it all on the line for..A wife knows the heart of her husband and supports him in his endeavors and provides sound wisdom when he might be going astray, that type of thinking and acting does not start after she says I do..it begins when she discerns that he in fact is the man of God for her..and as she feeds her spirit and navigates the relationship she learns and grows, so that when it is time to become his wife she is ready to go to the next plateau with him.
So I'm hiding all of these words in my heart, so that they will grow and flourish and not just be words that I post in a blog, but words that exemplify who I am.
This blog is for those of us who are not perfect, have messed up, and have found ourselves lost in love..I don't mind sharing my thoughts if someone can relate..I am real about mine..I have been there... placing my heart in someone's hands who either wasn't ready, didn't really want it, or didn't know what to do with it...Believing words spoken because I truly wanted to believe that the idea of "too good to be true" was not true...I do believe that there are good men out there, that love God and have great respect for women, but no one is PERFECT! I embrace every mistake because it showed up areas of weakness that I was able to SQUASH..I would not have known I possessed these weaknesses, had I not gone through those experiences.
Human relationships are ministry....ministry requires dedication, preparation, a certain level of maturity, clear knowledge of expectations, flexibility, and passion..It's a ministry that is constantly evolving and should be treated with great care..when someone says they are not ready to engage in a relationship with you (friendship, romantic, even familial) they are letting you know that they can not provide the necessary care required for this great ministry..respect their honesty and let it be...nothing that you do or don't do will change that..
These are things that we know..but sometimes someone needs encouragement and I don't mind providing it.
:-) much Love,
Nakiyah
Past experiences may lead us to think that adversity in a relationship resembles what we deem as what would happen in "real life", so we continue to hold on and press on with the belief that through the struggles we will learn and grow..TRUTH-relationships will face tests, hardships etc..But agony should not be the dominant feeling.. Certainly not very early in a relationship..If someone is unhappy with how you communicate you can adjust, but do not LOSE the uniqueness of how you communicate in order to please someone else..it creates a false sense of reality for them and you..When you're dealing with someone they deserve the TRUE you..good,bad,fabulous,lackluster(yall get what I'm saying)
I can speak for me... having grown up being taught to be submissive to men, sometimes we find ourselves submitting to men that are not our husbands or figures of authority...this causes confusion..most often we are submitting to folks that were never intended to be entrusted with that great sense of responsibility. The confusion that develops is not present because something is wrong with them, it's because they are not the one(s) that God intended to handle your heart. Though they may try, they will be unsuccessful...This is why as women we are to seek wisdom, so that we can properly discern what is supposed to happen with any man that enters our life..we have to be on point spiritually.
Ruth was obedient to her mother in law, but she also had to have some connection to God..her faith told her to follow that woman and her wisdom told her that BOAZ was worth putting it all on the line for..A wife knows the heart of her husband and supports him in his endeavors and provides sound wisdom when he might be going astray, that type of thinking and acting does not start after she says I do..it begins when she discerns that he in fact is the man of God for her..and as she feeds her spirit and navigates the relationship she learns and grows, so that when it is time to become his wife she is ready to go to the next plateau with him.
So I'm hiding all of these words in my heart, so that they will grow and flourish and not just be words that I post in a blog, but words that exemplify who I am.
This blog is for those of us who are not perfect, have messed up, and have found ourselves lost in love..I don't mind sharing my thoughts if someone can relate..I am real about mine..I have been there... placing my heart in someone's hands who either wasn't ready, didn't really want it, or didn't know what to do with it...Believing words spoken because I truly wanted to believe that the idea of "too good to be true" was not true...I do believe that there are good men out there, that love God and have great respect for women, but no one is PERFECT! I embrace every mistake because it showed up areas of weakness that I was able to SQUASH..I would not have known I possessed these weaknesses, had I not gone through those experiences.
Human relationships are ministry....ministry requires dedication, preparation, a certain level of maturity, clear knowledge of expectations, flexibility, and passion..It's a ministry that is constantly evolving and should be treated with great care..when someone says they are not ready to engage in a relationship with you (friendship, romantic, even familial) they are letting you know that they can not provide the necessary care required for this great ministry..respect their honesty and let it be...nothing that you do or don't do will change that..
These are things that we know..but sometimes someone needs encouragement and I don't mind providing it.
:-) much Love,
Nakiyah
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