Soooo :-) it's been super long since I have written a blog...Mainly because I like to process before I put things out there in the atmosphere. Well I have A LOT to say, but I will not say it all in this particular blog. A few things though. This has been an amazing 5 months! It's been filled with highs, lows, and a bevy of lessons. The people that God has placed in my life have literally spoken life and blessings over me, and it's my duty to embrace it all and walk out my dreams. There's a song that is dear to my heart by PJ Morton. One line says "somebody's waiting for you, waiting for me, destiny..." It's absolutely true! If we don't release what God has blessed us with to this world we have forfeited our TRUE lives. There are people that only you will touch and inspire...people that need the word that God has given you to proclaim.God has shown me that my ability to focus needed to be perfected in all areas.. I can be focused about this or that, but not in other areas. However excellence demands that deliberate focus be pervasive in all areas of my life. So in order to always operate in excellence focus and resolve have to be the foundation of all of my efforts..
I am 28 years old and there are so many things that I felt should have happened at this stage in my life...after having a conversation with my younger sisters on Thanksgiving I know that I've embraced where I am. It doesn't mean I'm not going to strive for better and more, it just means that I am content with the plan that God has for my life. It's so easy to become discontented and become purely emotional in your life decisions. I'm glad that I experienced all that I have this year because it showed me areas in my life that I needed to address and attack with the word of God. There's more but I'll save it!! Let's keep loving God, people, life, and making our dreams happen under God's direction. However the Lord uses you to reach folks, USE YOUR GIFTS!! We need you and we need your gifts! :-)
Love ya!
Kiyah
Saturday, November 27, 2010
Saturday, September 4, 2010
Pressure
Well it's been an interesting month..full of breakthroughs, revelations,epiphanies, all that great life changing kind of stuff! The greatest musical hits, most eloquently spoken sermons/speeches, the most profound moments in life are often manifested when the messenger is under extreme pressure...So when we are forced to FACE THE MUSIC per se, we have a choice. We can back down and bow out or we can face it and then define it's flow. That separates the strong from the weak and faint hearted. When life deals you a blow what's your course of action? Retreating doesn't have to mean that you're out of the game..it's simply an opportunity to brace up and come back better, more prepared, and more determined to be triumphant.
Isn't it an amazing sight when we think back to 6 months or a year ago and we weigh where we were in life and then where we are now? Even with all the mess-ups one should still be able to say, it happened...but it's going to make me better and more efficient in the future. There is a need for introspection and self-examination at all times, but let those processes benefit your world!! It's okay to be wrong, admit it, and move on in a positive direction. The more you acknowledge the faults, the more polished you will become because you'll be smoothing out those rough edges.
With all of this being said...God loves us the most and the best, so let him squeeze you, love you, correct you, and refine you and send you out to do amazing and wonderful things in this world!
Much Love,
Kiyah :-)
Isn't it an amazing sight when we think back to 6 months or a year ago and we weigh where we were in life and then where we are now? Even with all the mess-ups one should still be able to say, it happened...but it's going to make me better and more efficient in the future. There is a need for introspection and self-examination at all times, but let those processes benefit your world!! It's okay to be wrong, admit it, and move on in a positive direction. The more you acknowledge the faults, the more polished you will become because you'll be smoothing out those rough edges.
With all of this being said...God loves us the most and the best, so let him squeeze you, love you, correct you, and refine you and send you out to do amazing and wonderful things in this world!
Much Love,
Kiyah :-)
Wednesday, August 25, 2010
For My Ladies :-)
Don't ever lose yourself in love..Lose yourself in God and let him lead you to the love you've always deserved...
Past experiences may lead us to think that adversity in a relationship resembles what we deem as what would happen in "real life", so we continue to hold on and press on with the belief that through the struggles we will learn and grow..TRUTH-relationships will face tests, hardships etc..But agony should not be the dominant feeling.. Certainly not very early in a relationship..If someone is unhappy with how you communicate you can adjust, but do not LOSE the uniqueness of how you communicate in order to please someone else..it creates a false sense of reality for them and you..When you're dealing with someone they deserve the TRUE you..good,bad,fabulous,lackluster(yall get what I'm saying)
I can speak for me... having grown up being taught to be submissive to men, sometimes we find ourselves submitting to men that are not our husbands or figures of authority...this causes confusion..most often we are submitting to folks that were never intended to be entrusted with that great sense of responsibility. The confusion that develops is not present because something is wrong with them, it's because they are not the one(s) that God intended to handle your heart. Though they may try, they will be unsuccessful...This is why as women we are to seek wisdom, so that we can properly discern what is supposed to happen with any man that enters our life..we have to be on point spiritually.
Ruth was obedient to her mother in law, but she also had to have some connection to God..her faith told her to follow that woman and her wisdom told her that BOAZ was worth putting it all on the line for..A wife knows the heart of her husband and supports him in his endeavors and provides sound wisdom when he might be going astray, that type of thinking and acting does not start after she says I do..it begins when she discerns that he in fact is the man of God for her..and as she feeds her spirit and navigates the relationship she learns and grows, so that when it is time to become his wife she is ready to go to the next plateau with him.
So I'm hiding all of these words in my heart, so that they will grow and flourish and not just be words that I post in a blog, but words that exemplify who I am.
This blog is for those of us who are not perfect, have messed up, and have found ourselves lost in love..I don't mind sharing my thoughts if someone can relate..I am real about mine..I have been there... placing my heart in someone's hands who either wasn't ready, didn't really want it, or didn't know what to do with it...Believing words spoken because I truly wanted to believe that the idea of "too good to be true" was not true...I do believe that there are good men out there, that love God and have great respect for women, but no one is PERFECT! I embrace every mistake because it showed up areas of weakness that I was able to SQUASH..I would not have known I possessed these weaknesses, had I not gone through those experiences.
Human relationships are ministry....ministry requires dedication, preparation, a certain level of maturity, clear knowledge of expectations, flexibility, and passion..It's a ministry that is constantly evolving and should be treated with great care..when someone says they are not ready to engage in a relationship with you (friendship, romantic, even familial) they are letting you know that they can not provide the necessary care required for this great ministry..respect their honesty and let it be...nothing that you do or don't do will change that..
These are things that we know..but sometimes someone needs encouragement and I don't mind providing it.
:-) much Love,
Nakiyah
Past experiences may lead us to think that adversity in a relationship resembles what we deem as what would happen in "real life", so we continue to hold on and press on with the belief that through the struggles we will learn and grow..TRUTH-relationships will face tests, hardships etc..But agony should not be the dominant feeling.. Certainly not very early in a relationship..If someone is unhappy with how you communicate you can adjust, but do not LOSE the uniqueness of how you communicate in order to please someone else..it creates a false sense of reality for them and you..When you're dealing with someone they deserve the TRUE you..good,bad,fabulous,lackluster(yall get what I'm saying)
I can speak for me... having grown up being taught to be submissive to men, sometimes we find ourselves submitting to men that are not our husbands or figures of authority...this causes confusion..most often we are submitting to folks that were never intended to be entrusted with that great sense of responsibility. The confusion that develops is not present because something is wrong with them, it's because they are not the one(s) that God intended to handle your heart. Though they may try, they will be unsuccessful...This is why as women we are to seek wisdom, so that we can properly discern what is supposed to happen with any man that enters our life..we have to be on point spiritually.
Ruth was obedient to her mother in law, but she also had to have some connection to God..her faith told her to follow that woman and her wisdom told her that BOAZ was worth putting it all on the line for..A wife knows the heart of her husband and supports him in his endeavors and provides sound wisdom when he might be going astray, that type of thinking and acting does not start after she says I do..it begins when she discerns that he in fact is the man of God for her..and as she feeds her spirit and navigates the relationship she learns and grows, so that when it is time to become his wife she is ready to go to the next plateau with him.
So I'm hiding all of these words in my heart, so that they will grow and flourish and not just be words that I post in a blog, but words that exemplify who I am.
This blog is for those of us who are not perfect, have messed up, and have found ourselves lost in love..I don't mind sharing my thoughts if someone can relate..I am real about mine..I have been there... placing my heart in someone's hands who either wasn't ready, didn't really want it, or didn't know what to do with it...Believing words spoken because I truly wanted to believe that the idea of "too good to be true" was not true...I do believe that there are good men out there, that love God and have great respect for women, but no one is PERFECT! I embrace every mistake because it showed up areas of weakness that I was able to SQUASH..I would not have known I possessed these weaknesses, had I not gone through those experiences.
Human relationships are ministry....ministry requires dedication, preparation, a certain level of maturity, clear knowledge of expectations, flexibility, and passion..It's a ministry that is constantly evolving and should be treated with great care..when someone says they are not ready to engage in a relationship with you (friendship, romantic, even familial) they are letting you know that they can not provide the necessary care required for this great ministry..respect their honesty and let it be...nothing that you do or don't do will change that..
These are things that we know..but sometimes someone needs encouragement and I don't mind providing it.
:-) much Love,
Nakiyah
Friday, August 13, 2010
Fathers
I usually don't write blogs back to back, but so much has happened this week I just need to get this out..
So Thursday night at our annual Holy Convocation at my church two Bishops preached and their format was tag team preaching. So the first speaker began talking about Eli and how his sons were out of order and evetually the Lord caused them to die. He talked about a lack of fathering and training. He laid the foundation, and then the next speaker began by giving his own testimony. He'd been raised in a household of 8 children and his father wasn't there for him growing up. He'd asked God to make him a good husband and father since he hadn't experienced this growing up. God honored him and showed him how to be a loving husband and phenomenal father. His story touched me because here is a man who chose to defy the odds and expectations of him to be like his father and maybe even worse. Through a simple prayer and calculated actions he became the father and affirmer that he never had. He stressed the importance of the role of a father and the need for children to have a father's affirmation.
I agree with that, I believe that the role of a mentor, father, male figure is essential to the emotional success of any boy or girl. Men possess a certain strength of character(as do women) but I'm sure we can all appreciate the strengths that men bring to the table. Protector, provider, one that covers, and that can often bear the emotional and spiritual weight of a family. In our society there is a serious lack of this presence on a consistent level in the lives of boy and girls. I believe that we see the effects of this. My goal is to encourage men who are not being a father(daddy) to their children to PLEASE find a way to begin taking your role and being consistent in it. Those that are active PLEASE stay active re-assure and affirm your children it makes a world of difference for them in their future endeavors and especially their future relationships.
My biological father passed when I was young and there were a few men that I call brothers that stepped up, but when I was about 18 I began to develop a REAL father/daughter relationship with my Godfather. I thank God for him everyday..He has been there for me, completely believes in me, and loves me even when we don't agree ..I love it!! I was always told that my biological father loved me and I believed it, but seeing my DAD (Godfather), as I call him, in church on a Sunday leading worship, preaching, giving me that Hug I need until I soften up..LOL..has changed my life..Recently I went to my DAD about a matter of the heart and though he is generally supportive of what I want..He simply told me who I am, what I deserve, and said what you're telling me is NOT good enough for my daughter....well, THAT alone set me on a course of thinking that has brought me spiritual and emotional freedom..
My point in sharing my heart is to urge us to see the value in fathers and pray for the fathers that are not standing up and being the men that their children need.. we can talk about the problems until we are blue in the face, but God wants us to pray, give words of encouragementand support to those men that might be struggling along the way.
Thank God for a heavenly FATHER that never fails, shows un-ending love, and loves us beyond our pain and faults :-)
Love yall Much,
Nakiyah
So Thursday night at our annual Holy Convocation at my church two Bishops preached and their format was tag team preaching. So the first speaker began talking about Eli and how his sons were out of order and evetually the Lord caused them to die. He talked about a lack of fathering and training. He laid the foundation, and then the next speaker began by giving his own testimony. He'd been raised in a household of 8 children and his father wasn't there for him growing up. He'd asked God to make him a good husband and father since he hadn't experienced this growing up. God honored him and showed him how to be a loving husband and phenomenal father. His story touched me because here is a man who chose to defy the odds and expectations of him to be like his father and maybe even worse. Through a simple prayer and calculated actions he became the father and affirmer that he never had. He stressed the importance of the role of a father and the need for children to have a father's affirmation.
I agree with that, I believe that the role of a mentor, father, male figure is essential to the emotional success of any boy or girl. Men possess a certain strength of character(as do women) but I'm sure we can all appreciate the strengths that men bring to the table. Protector, provider, one that covers, and that can often bear the emotional and spiritual weight of a family. In our society there is a serious lack of this presence on a consistent level in the lives of boy and girls. I believe that we see the effects of this. My goal is to encourage men who are not being a father(daddy) to their children to PLEASE find a way to begin taking your role and being consistent in it. Those that are active PLEASE stay active re-assure and affirm your children it makes a world of difference for them in their future endeavors and especially their future relationships.
My biological father passed when I was young and there were a few men that I call brothers that stepped up, but when I was about 18 I began to develop a REAL father/daughter relationship with my Godfather. I thank God for him everyday..He has been there for me, completely believes in me, and loves me even when we don't agree ..I love it!! I was always told that my biological father loved me and I believed it, but seeing my DAD (Godfather), as I call him, in church on a Sunday leading worship, preaching, giving me that Hug I need until I soften up..LOL..has changed my life..Recently I went to my DAD about a matter of the heart and though he is generally supportive of what I want..He simply told me who I am, what I deserve, and said what you're telling me is NOT good enough for my daughter....well, THAT alone set me on a course of thinking that has brought me spiritual and emotional freedom..
My point in sharing my heart is to urge us to see the value in fathers and pray for the fathers that are not standing up and being the men that their children need.. we can talk about the problems until we are blue in the face, but God wants us to pray, give words of encouragementand support to those men that might be struggling along the way.
Thank God for a heavenly FATHER that never fails, shows un-ending love, and loves us beyond our pain and faults :-)
Love yall Much,
Nakiyah
Wednesday, August 4, 2010
GROWTH
Well its been 2 months since my last blog...way too long..A lot has happened... the focus of this blog is not what has happened,but how it has all impacted my future..I think that everyone can say that they have experienced a season in their life that served as a breaking point..It could have been precipitated by a number of occurences negative, positive, or a combination of the two. This breaking point usually cajoles a need a for action...Puts you in do or die mode...You're either going to finally do what you've always dreamed of or you're going to continue to let life, opportunities, and chances for growth escape you. Let me say that there is POWER in CONFESSION..often simply saying what IT is brings about self awareness and then healing. I've had to say a lot of things...I was once a person that held it all in until I couldnt contain it any longer(understand I am speaking in faith regarding that)So part of my journey has been simply opening my mouth and talking about how I feel.
My last blog was about letting go..I knew the test would come..it came and I had to take it, no way around this one. All in all I learned that everyone does not let you know when they let go of you. Sometimes we expect people to be accountable to us because we've allowed them to take residence in our heart...But we must remember that our obligation starts and ends with God and He is the only person that we should have that kind of expectation of. We have to guard our hearts with the word of GOD, and when we say we truly trust the Lord with our lives we have to show and prove!! He loves us so much and only wants what's best for us.
So I'm taking His hand and I REFUSE to let it go! Let's do this thing together yall! Let's get all that God has for us and trust even when we cant see the wonderful promises.
My last blog was about letting go..I knew the test would come..it came and I had to take it, no way around this one. All in all I learned that everyone does not let you know when they let go of you. Sometimes we expect people to be accountable to us because we've allowed them to take residence in our heart...But we must remember that our obligation starts and ends with God and He is the only person that we should have that kind of expectation of. We have to guard our hearts with the word of GOD, and when we say we truly trust the Lord with our lives we have to show and prove!! He loves us so much and only wants what's best for us.
So I'm taking His hand and I REFUSE to let it go! Let's do this thing together yall! Let's get all that God has for us and trust even when we cant see the wonderful promises.
Monday, May 31, 2010
Letting Go
There is such a freedom in letting go,once you finally do it...The struggle is finding the courage and resolve to do so. The hardest part of letting go is making all the necessary preparations and steps in order to do so. Convincing yourself that your loyalty to someone or something stops at a certain point, dealing with the after effects of the vacancy that letting go creates,telling yourself that you really are better off without said person/thing. All of this grueling preparation for that liberating moment when you do what's best for you and your future and not what's best for your here and now.Sometimes we pro-long letting go because it satisfies a temporary desire. It takes maturity, strength of character, and some serious guts to do this. You really have to be completely convinced that it is necessary to let go. If anything in your life is not growing then you need to let it go. God has given you the Holy spirit and intuition, you have a good idea of what you need and what suits you. Granted there are times when the Lord will use someone to be the voice of reason about things that you overlook, but you generally know what you need to do to make things happen in your life.
Don't be afraid of transition. Oh believe me, I know that transitions and letting go can be traumatizing at times. However, the after effects yield such favorable results that you recognize that it is an absolute MUST. Letting go requires daily affirmation, you have to remind yourself on a daily basis why you are doing what you are doing. If you don't do this you will easily slip back into old habits. Whether it's "stinking thinking" or just plain "busy thinking" such as: ruminating about why you didn't do it sooner, what people will think? why me? what am I going to fill that void with? Although these are valid thoughts,when we OVER ANALYZE things we subject our self to the weakness in our own interpretations. Life has a way that is sometimes a great mystery. In order to make sense of this mystery there has to be balance in our thinking about the transitions we go through. Great confidence in our gut is required, but we also have to rely on God to smooth out the path that follows the transition.
The good thing about it all is knowing that you will be stronger, wiser, and better after it's all been said and done. Letting go is an amazing feeling, it frees you from worry, the mother of stress LOL. God loves us and knows us best and if He brings us to it, He will bring us through it.
Love Yall Much!
:-) Kiyah
Don't be afraid of transition. Oh believe me, I know that transitions and letting go can be traumatizing at times. However, the after effects yield such favorable results that you recognize that it is an absolute MUST. Letting go requires daily affirmation, you have to remind yourself on a daily basis why you are doing what you are doing. If you don't do this you will easily slip back into old habits. Whether it's "stinking thinking" or just plain "busy thinking" such as: ruminating about why you didn't do it sooner, what people will think? why me? what am I going to fill that void with? Although these are valid thoughts,when we OVER ANALYZE things we subject our self to the weakness in our own interpretations. Life has a way that is sometimes a great mystery. In order to make sense of this mystery there has to be balance in our thinking about the transitions we go through. Great confidence in our gut is required, but we also have to rely on God to smooth out the path that follows the transition.
The good thing about it all is knowing that you will be stronger, wiser, and better after it's all been said and done. Letting go is an amazing feeling, it frees you from worry, the mother of stress LOL. God loves us and knows us best and if He brings us to it, He will bring us through it.
Love Yall Much!
:-) Kiyah
Friday, May 21, 2010
Listen.....
For every season in your life there is a purpose and when you are in your purpose your passion will flourish, and when your passion flourishes WATCH OUT!!
Never let pain, hurt, or disappointment stymy your growth. It can absolutely catapult you into a new season. There are situations,times, occurrences in your life where you are placed in someone's life to develop something in them or vice versa and then it's time for you to move on. Be sensitive to God and listen when he says to let go. What will happen if you don't is the very thing that loved you and looked to you will no longer love you or want to look to you. You will think it's them or you and it's not, the process/season is over and now it's time for the next assignment. This is why the bible says that we should pray without ceasing. When we truly remain prayerful, we will know when the sand in the hour glass has made it's last drop to the bottom and that it's time to turn the hourglass over and begin a new chapter...
Love you all much! Keep loving each other and keep loving God! :-)
Never let pain, hurt, or disappointment stymy your growth. It can absolutely catapult you into a new season. There are situations,times, occurrences in your life where you are placed in someone's life to develop something in them or vice versa and then it's time for you to move on. Be sensitive to God and listen when he says to let go. What will happen if you don't is the very thing that loved you and looked to you will no longer love you or want to look to you. You will think it's them or you and it's not, the process/season is over and now it's time for the next assignment. This is why the bible says that we should pray without ceasing. When we truly remain prayerful, we will know when the sand in the hour glass has made it's last drop to the bottom and that it's time to turn the hourglass over and begin a new chapter...
Love you all much! Keep loving each other and keep loving God! :-)
Thursday, May 6, 2010
transitions
There is soooo much on my mind right now...I will give it to you all as clearly as possible. I have not blogged in awhile because I couldn't decide what to share. As I sit here on this Tremendous Thursday I realize that I am at another pivotal point in my life. Realizing everyday who I really am...embracing parts of me that have been dormant for so long.. There are times when insecurity speaks to our consciousness and it's not accurate, and then there are times when the core of who you are speaks to you and either reminds you of key things, or heightens your senses to things that you are not paying attention to. That happened to me this morning...a gut feeling...can't explain it in too much detail. I just had a shift in thinking.I've said this so many times and I will continue to do so, don't smother, stuff, or stifle your true feelings. They will only come back to haunt you. I'm not just talking about romantic feelings....your needs, what you expect, what makes you tick. When you don't it festers until something triggers and then BOOM there they are again and you have to deal with them.
Sometimes we keep at something in expectation of some enormous life altering change...I've been taught to be loyal, hang in there etc...We have to be careful of what we ascribe our loyalty to. If it is not God's will, it won't yield fruit. It will start yielding corruption, confusion,stagnation. Now we know what those things bring with them...doubt, fear, hopelessness, defeat.
Today, I have once again re-committed myself to loving me and focusing on being patient and not hasty. You can't make anyone love you, want you, or verify what they've said to you. The only thing that you can do is keep being you, keep loving folks, and let the chips fall where they might. I truly believe that patterns persist, I do believe that human behavior can change if one is committed to change. However, if someone is consistent in their approach towards you, take them at their actions! This goes for friends, business associates, people of romantic interest, family etc. Sometimes we want what we're not even ready for. Go at your own pace, hold things loosely, and Hold on TIGHTEST to GOD!
Love yall much,
Kiyah!
Sometimes we keep at something in expectation of some enormous life altering change...I've been taught to be loyal, hang in there etc...We have to be careful of what we ascribe our loyalty to. If it is not God's will, it won't yield fruit. It will start yielding corruption, confusion,stagnation. Now we know what those things bring with them...doubt, fear, hopelessness, defeat.
Today, I have once again re-committed myself to loving me and focusing on being patient and not hasty. You can't make anyone love you, want you, or verify what they've said to you. The only thing that you can do is keep being you, keep loving folks, and let the chips fall where they might. I truly believe that patterns persist, I do believe that human behavior can change if one is committed to change. However, if someone is consistent in their approach towards you, take them at their actions! This goes for friends, business associates, people of romantic interest, family etc. Sometimes we want what we're not even ready for. Go at your own pace, hold things loosely, and Hold on TIGHTEST to GOD!
Love yall much,
Kiyah!
Thursday, March 25, 2010
Back to Basics
Hey Yall! So I'm reading the bible through the year...I am still in Genesis..LOL..but I'm getting there. Well I've read the story of ABRAHAM and SARAI many times, but as I read it this week my mind started traveling. Sarai and Abram were given the promise about a child, Sarai decided to take matters into her own hands and Abram unwittingly followed suit. But just focusing on Sarai, she's a woman and I can relate to her more, she became anxious and faithless, and her lack of self control impacted more than just her life. Ishmael ended up being fatherless, and Hagar was completely denied the right to choose what to do with her own body. Who knows, Sarai's and Abram's decision may have been what ended up delaying the promise of a child for more than 4 years after Ishmael was born. Taking matters into our own hands delays and blocks blessings. God will still bless us, but just imagine if we'd waited patiently, at the proper time the blessing would have manifested, it would have saved us a lot of heartache and pain. So many lessons in this for me. Mostly self-examination, it is so important that we check in with God about who we say we are and what we are actually doing. he knows us through and through. He knows our hearts and secret conversations. He will tell us the real deal about who we really are.
Leave room for error, meaning know that you are wrong sometimes and it's okay not to be perfect. Say what you mean, express yourself in love, and keep it moving when it comes to hard things. It's important not to brush over things, but it is also important that you address a matter and then move on. Forgive and yes forget. I think that's the better principal. when you endeavor to forget then you're doing as God does. Once you repent He forgets it and casts it in the sea, where its washed away.
In reading through Genesis God is showing me, how little areas of disobedience turn into major life interruptions. Let's make a vow to try to minimize those things that stifle our progress and growth. let's agree to disagree, and still show each other love. Let's go back to basics and use what works to effectively spring forward!
LOVE YALL!
Nakiyah
Leave room for error, meaning know that you are wrong sometimes and it's okay not to be perfect. Say what you mean, express yourself in love, and keep it moving when it comes to hard things. It's important not to brush over things, but it is also important that you address a matter and then move on. Forgive and yes forget. I think that's the better principal. when you endeavor to forget then you're doing as God does. Once you repent He forgets it and casts it in the sea, where its washed away.
In reading through Genesis God is showing me, how little areas of disobedience turn into major life interruptions. Let's make a vow to try to minimize those things that stifle our progress and growth. let's agree to disagree, and still show each other love. Let's go back to basics and use what works to effectively spring forward!
LOVE YALL!
Nakiyah
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
Freedom
There is a certain freedom that comes with freeing yourself.....in order to get free, you have to free yourself, you know what I mean? Dont stuff your truths to mask your secret pain....it will only cause that pain to grow and grow and grow some more. Let God reveal it to you in it's entirety, so that He can heal it.The day you release yourself from your securities is the day that you really start living. Love you for you, and then someone else will truly love you for you!
love yall much,
Nakiyah
love yall much,
Nakiyah
Tuesday, February 16, 2010
Faith, Love, Action
I have a lot of thoughts going through my head right now...I am probably faced with the hardest thing that I can think of that I've experienced in my life...and not a tear has been shed over it. Amazing, I tell you, God is amazing! He is truly lifting up my head and heart right now. It's not anything relationship related at all, Praise God! Nothing is too hard for God and He's showing me what joy in sorrow feels like. I should absolutely , positively be sad about certain things, but I have gladness and joy because I have hope. I am trusting the One that never fails and I believe that makes a big difference.. Interestingly enough as I'm writing this and declaring in faith that I will have joy, God worked on some one's heart.That quick and in an instant. This is how I know that God is real. In the midst of a dry place, or a situation where you just can not see how it will get better, God steps in and will show you once again who He is and what He can do. Faith is the one thing that no one can take away from you. It can be challenged and tested, but no one can take it away from you.
Find ways to make an impact with your life. Sometimes when I think about the people in my life that God has blessed me with I begin to cry. Tears of joy. Because I remember when...and I know that God is just showing me how much He loves me through them. We have what we say and we are what we say! There is so much life and power in our words! The very atmosphere around you changes when you speak..it seems so simple, but it really isn't. It requires work and diligence The word of God says that Death and life are in the power of the tongue and they that love it will eat the fruit thereof. I want good fruit to be produced from my speech, so that I can reap the benefits..How about you?
love ya!
Kiyah :-)
Find ways to make an impact with your life. Sometimes when I think about the people in my life that God has blessed me with I begin to cry. Tears of joy. Because I remember when...and I know that God is just showing me how much He loves me through them. We have what we say and we are what we say! There is so much life and power in our words! The very atmosphere around you changes when you speak..it seems so simple, but it really isn't. It requires work and diligence The word of God says that Death and life are in the power of the tongue and they that love it will eat the fruit thereof. I want good fruit to be produced from my speech, so that I can reap the benefits..How about you?
love ya!
Kiyah :-)
Thursday, February 11, 2010
Where My heart Belongs...
In regards to God-that's a no brainer, it absolutely unequivocally belongs in the palm of His hands, and that's where it will stay. When I think about the statement above "Where My Heart Belongs" I almost wince at the thought, when considering being in a relationship, being in love. This is a question that I've asked myself so many times. Of course traumatic events often push these thoughts to the forefront. I still wonder how it all fits into the equation of my life..still. You know the saying, you take two steps forward and are seemingly shoved 10 steps back, by something or somebody?? Well I've learned how to endure the blow and not get blown back into yesterday, however moving forward is the most challenging waters to navigate. it's easy to be complacent when it pertains to love, especially when you've been hurt badly. It's one thing to forgive someone and let it go. It's a whole other set of circumstances trying to wholeheartedly move forward with the next person who just might be the RIGHT person.....pausing to think.....or even allowing yourself to believe their is a RIGHT person. Someone recently asked me if I would be content being single for the rest of my life. I immediately said no....without a thought, that's progress for me. However would I be willing to move forward if God said today or tomorrow..I don't know.
How scary is it though to tell someone your story again, trust that what their saying is truth, believe all over again that this time will be different? It's very scary,if we'd be honest. Something that we might even avoid. How many times have many of us prayed to God and expressed our heart to Him and still find ourselves not sure. I submit that God is truly up to something. He is working on the intricate and dark places that we are not even able to conceptualize. How can anyone truly measure the full extent/impact of hurt and pain? It's a real and individual experience, as unique as our fingerprints. It often surfaces when we least expect it. And although we can empathize with each other, no one can feel the virtue leave us when someone says something or does something that causes that emotional blow.
I am no longer a pessimist, I declare that I'm an optimist. As an optimist I believe that everything will work together for my good..OUR good Romans 8:28. I also believe that when I can not seemingly effectively apply my analytical skills or common sense to understand a situation, that I have to apply the word of God! So Proverbs 3:5-6, Psalm 37:4, Jeremiah 29:11 they answer where my heart TRULY belongs and will stay--Tied up in my destiny never to be separated from God's perfect will. When I think about it all , it all starts and ends with God-so if I fully and completely trust HIM I cant go wrong. I just have to be patient and obedient.
The bottom line is having faith in those hard times, when you can't see..
Love Yall!!
=) Nakiyah
How scary is it though to tell someone your story again, trust that what their saying is truth, believe all over again that this time will be different? It's very scary,if we'd be honest. Something that we might even avoid. How many times have many of us prayed to God and expressed our heart to Him and still find ourselves not sure. I submit that God is truly up to something. He is working on the intricate and dark places that we are not even able to conceptualize. How can anyone truly measure the full extent/impact of hurt and pain? It's a real and individual experience, as unique as our fingerprints. It often surfaces when we least expect it. And although we can empathize with each other, no one can feel the virtue leave us when someone says something or does something that causes that emotional blow.
I am no longer a pessimist, I declare that I'm an optimist. As an optimist I believe that everything will work together for my good..OUR good Romans 8:28. I also believe that when I can not seemingly effectively apply my analytical skills or common sense to understand a situation, that I have to apply the word of God! So Proverbs 3:5-6, Psalm 37:4, Jeremiah 29:11 they answer where my heart TRULY belongs and will stay--Tied up in my destiny never to be separated from God's perfect will. When I think about it all , it all starts and ends with God-so if I fully and completely trust HIM I cant go wrong. I just have to be patient and obedient.
The bottom line is having faith in those hard times, when you can't see..
Love Yall!!
=) Nakiyah
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
Seasons-Seeds&Harvest
So there are a myriad of topics that I want to blog about and I will probably just touch on a little bit of all of them in this blog =)
So its been a little over a month and many things have transpired. I'm in a very unique place in my life. I'm establishing an intricate balance in my life, that was not there before. I had cut myself off from certain natural happenings of life, mainly because there was major work that the Lord needed to do in my life. He is definitely not through with me in the least, however I have stepped into this new season with resolve and a desire to plow forward in a positive and progressive way.The season has undoubtedly come with its struggles and challenges, however it is necessary. Faith is unfolding in a way that I've never experienced in my life. So many situations are coming up that require intense Faith on my part. I literally have to force words of life out of my mouth. The scripture that says out of the abundance of the heart the mouth speaks has been playing out in my life, in a very real way. The Lord has been showing me my heart conditions through the words that have rolled out of my mouth. With every mistake He shows me that I need a lot more work, I don't have to be perfect, but I must be repentive. Thus all the experiences of the last month and a half have shaped me in a wonderful. all I can do is continue to TRUST GOD along the way. And I hope you do as well, its worth it!
The Lord has used some amazing ministries to help me move to the next dimension in Him. I am careful about who I endorse, support, or recommend because I realize that every one's experience is different, but these have inspired me, helped me, or all out revolutionzed my thinking.
Bonnerfide Radio-
This internet radio broadcast is hosted by the amazing Gerard Bonner. I don't use the word "amazing" with just anyone. This is an individual that does not just play songs and narrate for the purpose of entertainment. This is someone who speaks life, love, peace, prosperity, and even words of correction(in love) to those who listen. The love that is shown is often completely overwhelming and God's spirit truly flows when the BRC(bonnerfide radio chat crew) come together. Check it out at www.getbonnerfide.com
Next up is a ministry that when I initially became aware of was very inspired and intrigued by, and I kind of got pre-occupied with other stuff...My bad...LOL
This is the ministry of Gospel rapper MILLIYON. He has penned a movement that he calls "Live Milliyonic"
What intrigued me about this ministry is that the website did not simply focus on his body of work as an artist. It actually encompasses a movement in which the mission is directed towards winning souls for Christ and making an impact in the areas that Christians have been instructed to do so. Please peruse the website and check out the blog/youtube page etc. You will see exactly what I mean! It is noteworthy, which is why I chose to blog about it this time around.
www.livemilliyonic.com
They are others I will highlight in the future, just because its important that Christians lead and lead well. There are enough folks falling and as people of God we should bear them up. But we should also salute and FULLY support those that are displaying God's righteousness through their actions.
Again check these folk out and give feedback if you want!
Love ya much and let's make this OUR YEAR!
So its been a little over a month and many things have transpired. I'm in a very unique place in my life. I'm establishing an intricate balance in my life, that was not there before. I had cut myself off from certain natural happenings of life, mainly because there was major work that the Lord needed to do in my life. He is definitely not through with me in the least, however I have stepped into this new season with resolve and a desire to plow forward in a positive and progressive way.The season has undoubtedly come with its struggles and challenges, however it is necessary. Faith is unfolding in a way that I've never experienced in my life. So many situations are coming up that require intense Faith on my part. I literally have to force words of life out of my mouth. The scripture that says out of the abundance of the heart the mouth speaks has been playing out in my life, in a very real way. The Lord has been showing me my heart conditions through the words that have rolled out of my mouth. With every mistake He shows me that I need a lot more work, I don't have to be perfect, but I must be repentive. Thus all the experiences of the last month and a half have shaped me in a wonderful. all I can do is continue to TRUST GOD along the way. And I hope you do as well, its worth it!
The Lord has used some amazing ministries to help me move to the next dimension in Him. I am careful about who I endorse, support, or recommend because I realize that every one's experience is different, but these have inspired me, helped me, or all out revolutionzed my thinking.
Bonnerfide Radio-
This internet radio broadcast is hosted by the amazing Gerard Bonner. I don't use the word "amazing" with just anyone. This is an individual that does not just play songs and narrate for the purpose of entertainment. This is someone who speaks life, love, peace, prosperity, and even words of correction(in love) to those who listen. The love that is shown is often completely overwhelming and God's spirit truly flows when the BRC(bonnerfide radio chat crew) come together. Check it out at www.getbonnerfide.com
Next up is a ministry that when I initially became aware of was very inspired and intrigued by, and I kind of got pre-occupied with other stuff...My bad...LOL
This is the ministry of Gospel rapper MILLIYON. He has penned a movement that he calls "Live Milliyonic"
What intrigued me about this ministry is that the website did not simply focus on his body of work as an artist. It actually encompasses a movement in which the mission is directed towards winning souls for Christ and making an impact in the areas that Christians have been instructed to do so. Please peruse the website and check out the blog/youtube page etc. You will see exactly what I mean! It is noteworthy, which is why I chose to blog about it this time around.
www.livemilliyonic.com
They are others I will highlight in the future, just because its important that Christians lead and lead well. There are enough folks falling and as people of God we should bear them up. But we should also salute and FULLY support those that are displaying God's righteousness through their actions.
Again check these folk out and give feedback if you want!
Love ya much and let's make this OUR YEAR!
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